As I walked into Staples to hunt for an assignment pad for my now 6th grader, I stumbled upon a journal that with a cover that read, “A Mother’s Journey”. It smacked me right there in the face. This is something I have been thinking about lately with school just beginning, me being unemployed and having more time for my boys, and really enjoying those moments that we let slip by so fast! My journey as a mother has been a beautiful one and is something that continues to shed light on many of my fears and doubts while making me a better and stronger person as each day goes by.
This journey of motherhood has not been an easy one. Lately, I have been ridiculing myself because I had my kids so far apart in age. The mornings are a lot more difficult now trekking one child to elementary school and the other to middle school. I don’t choose to let my eldest ride the bus because I have my own personal opinion about it and have made this choice so I make the extra stop. I caught myself beating myself up as I drove home and I had to stop. I reminded myself that no journey worth having comes easy and I was able to end that sabotage session fairly quickly! I had no control over when I would be blessed with my second child so why even do that to myself? It was all a journey…a process over which I had no control.
In our journey of motherhood, we rarely have any control of what is presented to us. As a mother, my journey has not been easy but I will tell you one thing, so far it has all been worth it. As a mother I try to serve as the best role model I can be for my children. I model to them what hard work looks like every day by waking up early in the morning to prepare for their day and mine as well. They observe me at my computer writing and meeting deadlines. They see the responsibilities of a mother every day when I send them off to school with clean clothes and a lunch packed with love. They know that I am there for them and that I will advocate for them at any moment for whatever they need. Even more importantly, they know that they can count on me.
Sometimes I sit back and think about the paths that other moms take in this journey. I don’t pass judgement on anyone nor do I think I am a better mother than anyone else. I am the best mom for my children. I know that through this journey of motherhood, I am here to serve and protect them. I haven’t had the greatest example of motherhood as I reach my older years but I know what I want to do differently as my children get older. I want them to know that throughout their lives, at whatever age, they can always count on me, no one will ever come before them, and that this journey with them will be my greatest journey ever taken. A mother’s journey is never ending… when we commit to being a mother and take that journey….it’s for a lifetime!