I never really thought my age would phase me until the one day it actually did…when I realized I was getting older. My shock, thank goodness, only lasted for a semi-second. I don’t know what it was but somehow I thought I never would age (what planet was I on, right?). I didn’t let it get me down that day, but I just feared all types of possibly impending shit due to my age. It didn’t take me that long to realize that, “so what…age is nothing but a number”. I’m NOT going to lie, I don’t feel like I am 18 anymore, but who says that I can’t do the things I use to do? My age doesn’t define me and I sure as hell won’t let it.
As I said, my tiny freak-out over getting older was a very short thought because moments after I said, “so what if I am in my mid-thirties?! Many people don’t get to see my age nowadays and for that I am grateful!” I didn’t allow the fact that I am getting older have a tremendous impact on my life and I doubt I ever will. Instead, I grew from it. Specifically, I mean, I think about all that I have accomplished. I think about my family, my children, my two beautiful creations and possibly adding to my brood because I am NOT that old.
I wake up every morning with a grateful heart thanking the man up above for another day, another year. I can honestly say that I am 37 years old and I am proud of it. I am married to my high school sweetheart and I have spent literally nineteen birthdays with him. Every year he makes me feel as if I am still that 18 year old girl he first laid eyes on. I am truly blessed to have those who truly love me in my life.
As I reflect, my years have also made me wiser. I take things for what they are and don’t allow silliness to stress me out. I truly believe that as you get older, you do become wiser. I feel wiser and I feel more stable and confident in my life more than ever. I may not be exactly where I would like to be, but I am with those who I want to be with, and those who mean the world to me. As time goes by, I have become wise enough to see that everything comes in due time and when it is meant for me. I no longer try to control everything but instead, take it for all it’s worth as it comes naturally. I love myself more now and I am proud of decisions that I make because I am wiser! As I head closer to the 40 mark, I am confident that I will continue to embrace my age but more importantly, learn to love myself even more!
Happy Birthday to me and all of the Aquarians… Live, Love, Laugh and embrace your age!….it sure as hell doesn’t define you!!!