Despite all that I have been going through these past couple of months, I always try to stay positive. The truth is, I wasn’t always that way actually. You know I gotta keep it real! You go through your stages in life where you’re like, “Oh gosh, please that ain’t happening!” or you become so negative it becomes toxic to those around you. I recall becoming that person when I was trying to pass my teacher’s certification (already with my Master’s degree) and I missed it by a single point. I also remember going through a negative outlook phase when I first learned I was pregnant with our first child and my husband was laid off that same day. We were facing immeasurable joy but yet so much stress! How could that be?!
Somewhere between having my first born and my husband landing an awesome job, that all changed. I had that “I don’t give a shit” attitude, and thought, “what’s gonna happen is gonna happen…but I have to stay positive”. It was like night and day when I had this revelation. I must have said, “Hell no! I call the shots and today and from here on out I will be positive..because I owe that to myself!”
Things have come our way..trust me, we’ve seen some hard times but I just breath and think, “I have it hard right now but trust and believe someone else has it harder.” I just think about the positive outcome that is sure to come and know that whatever comes my way, I can face it. I have noticed this newfound attitude has made my life so much more positive and it makes me more confident. My husband even looks at me like I have lost my mind because I was the “worry wart” type of person…not anymore! Nothing and no one is stealing my joy!
That’s why, as I face the loss of my job come June due to the closure of our school, I am thankful for my hubby who will have our back with health benefits due to his awesome job with the MTA (Metropolitan Transportation Authority). I am not stressing one bit that I will be unemployed (or might be if I don’t land another position) because all things happen for a reason. I am under the impression that our lives are mapped out and things are supposed to happen, I feel positive about that. I feel for all of my other colleagues and their families but deep down inside, I know that there is something bigger and better mapped out for all of us. Many years ago, you wouldn’t have heard those words coming out of my mouth or even a written piece about it, but it’s been a growth process. I am in love with the positive Eileen and wouldn’t give her up for the world! In fact, I sometimes believe she’s contagious if I say so myself! This change took time to happen and allowing positive people in my life as well as having a positive husband by my side I am quite sure made it even more possible! But if I can do it, anyone can!
Care to share: How are you on the positivity side? Share some positive news with me!