Age Is Nothing But A Number

I never really thought my age would phase me until the one day it actually did…when I realized I was getting older. My shock, thank goodness, only lasted for a semi-second. I don’t know what it was but somehow I thought I never would age (what planet was I on, right?). I didn’t let it get me down that day, but I just feared all types of possibly impending shit due to my age. It didn’t take me that long to realize that, “so what…age is nothing but a number”. I’m NOT going to lie, I don’t feel like I am 18 anymore, but who says that I can’t do the things I use to do? My age doesn’t define me and I sure as hell won’t let it.

As I said, my tiny freak-out over getting older was a very short thought because moments after I said, “so what if I am in my mid-thirties?! Many people don’t get to see my age nowadays and for that I am grateful!” I didn’t allow the fact that I am getting older have a tremendous impact on my life and I doubt I ever will. Instead, I grew from it. Specifically, I mean, I think about all that I have accomplished. I think about my family, my children, my two beautiful creations and possibly adding to my brood because I am NOT that old.

I wake up every morning with a grateful heart thanking the man up above for another day, another year. I can honestly say that I am 37 years old and I am proud of it. I am married to my high school sweetheart and I have spent literally nineteen birthdays with him. Every year he makes me feel as if I am still that 18 year old girl he first laid eyes on. I am truly blessed to have those who truly love me in my life.

As I reflect, my years have also made me wiser. I take things for what they are and don’t allow silliness to stress me out. I truly believe that as you get older, you do become wiser. I feel wiser and I feel more stable and confident in my life more than ever. I may not be exactly where I would like to be, but I am with those who I want to be with, and those who mean the world to me. As time goes by, I have become wise enough to see that everything comes in due time and when it is meant for me. I no longer try to control everything but instead, take it for all it’s worth as it comes naturally. I love myself more now and I am proud of decisions that I make because I am wiser! As I head closer to the 40 mark, I am confident that I will continue to embrace my age but more importantly, learn to love myself even more!